I can't believe it! My boy is celebrating his 19th birthday today. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think we may see this milestone. I know that sounds terrible, but the ugly reality is that many kids with the health problems that he has (primarily the asthma and restricted lung capacity) survive into adulthood. I feel so lucky!
I can't even imagine how F feels. I often wonder if he has ever thought about his own life span or mortality or if he has felt that he was close to dying. I just have never had the courage to ask him. I've asked him before if he's angry about his disabilities. He has replied yes on some occasions and no on others. I would imagine like me it's a mixed thing. He only knows this life. He cannot miss what he's never really had. I know there was a time when he was VERY angry at the district for not providing him valuable services. I know at times he gets frustrated because he can never catch up he's so behind and it's harder now as an adult to make progress. I think he's done a fabulous job of making the best of everything he's been dealt.
Today I am grateful to say that I am blessed to have F in my life for these years. Thankful, for all he has taught me. My life is so much richer because of all that he brings to it.
Happy birthday, F! I can't wait to celebrate your 20th next year. I hope your day will be as special as you are. I love you to the moon and back!